Growing up in a Catholic home with prayerful parents, I had always heard about God and His love, but I never really believed or understood it. I was a Catholic but only by name. I would attend Holy Mass, do family prayer and attend prayer meetings, but only because I had to. I went through the motions all while never really knowing or experiencing this God everyone always talked about. During my middle school years, I fell deep into sin and went far away from Jesus. Because of this, I carried so much guilt and shame which led to me running even farther away from God, and deeper into sin. Then, while attending a retreat several years ago, I for the first time, came before God with all my sin and shame and just gave it all up to him, and instead of being rebuked or criticized, I felt loved. I experienced firsthand His love and His mercy. He told me through Isaiah 43:25 "It is I, who, for my own sake, wipe out your offenses, your sins I remember no more". Despite my unworthiness and weakness, there was a savior who loved me and called me to be holy. From then on began my journey to know God. To have a personal relationship with Jesus, to talk to Him every day. My life since then has been a series of ups and downs, and only by God's love and mercy, am I as close to Him as I am today. I can truly say that every single day, I am amazed by the great love of Jesus. I have seen Him work wonders and miracles in even the smallest areas of my life. If you are reading this, and you feel the same unworthiness I felt, know and believe that Jesus has never left your side. He is waiting for you to return to Him so He can show you His great mercy. Sirach 5:8 says “Do not delay your conversion to the Lord, put it not off day by day.” You only need to take one small step and before you know it, Jesus will come running towards you and turn your life upside down.
Thank you for taking the time to read this! God Bless!